Every time you say "No Thank you", You say " Yes Please" to Thin
FOOD IS A HENDRANCE TO YOUR SUCCESS
Monday, 15 February 2010
Skinny Me
My new blog. It is going to be filled with inspiration and positivity. I will not give up, I will be strong, I will be powerful I will be skinny.
Food means nothing to me, I will let go, I have no attachment to it what-so-ever.
I have identified my weakness - after dinner sitting alone at the computer I get cravings however I will over come these by spending my time on my laptop, beginning on lent on Wednesday slowly decreasing the amount of food that passes my lips.
Last night was a massive inspiration for me when I watched as one of my best friends threw up liquid because she hadnt eaten that day. Secretly, I wished I was her.
And not eating was all going so well until I forgot why I wasnt eating. I will write a list when I start the new blog of reasons. I will put it down the side so it will always be there. I will look at other blogs especially the ones I am following to give me inspiration and will power.
You can do this. You can L. I am going to be such a f*cking skinny bitch.
Food means nothing to me, I will let go, I have no attachment to it what-so-ever.
I have identified my weakness - after dinner sitting alone at the computer I get cravings however I will over come these by spending my time on my laptop, beginning on lent on Wednesday slowly decreasing the amount of food that passes my lips.
Last night was a massive inspiration for me when I watched as one of my best friends threw up liquid because she hadnt eaten that day. Secretly, I wished I was her.
And not eating was all going so well until I forgot why I wasnt eating. I will write a list when I start the new blog of reasons. I will put it down the side so it will always be there. I will look at other blogs especially the ones I am following to give me inspiration and will power.
You can do this. You can L. I am going to be such a f*cking skinny bitch.
Friday, 12 February 2010
Stumbled accross...
I was looking at my (small) blog that probably no one reads but it doesnt matter because I am only writing it for myself.
I came accross this post from two months ago stating my target weight was 107lbs. I can't believe this, I must be sloqly moving my target weight lower without me realising. My weight a couple of days ago was 107lb, so I reached my target. But I'm not happy with that. I want to be 100lbs.
My lowest weight was 103.6lb. Ah.
I will get there. 100lbs. I will I will I will I will I will.
I'm going to think of a treat for myself for when I get there. 17th Feb - 3rd April, lent 2010. I have this long to get to 102lbs. Then I will eat just fruit and vegetables for two days to get to 100lbs. And then I will celebrate.
I will look good in a bikini this summer. I will be able to buy size 8 skirts and look good in them for 6th form.
I came accross this post from two months ago stating my target weight was 107lbs. I can't believe this, I must be sloqly moving my target weight lower without me realising. My weight a couple of days ago was 107lb, so I reached my target. But I'm not happy with that. I want to be 100lbs.
My lowest weight was 103.6lb. Ah.
I will get there. 100lbs. I will I will I will I will I will.
I'm going to think of a treat for myself for when I get there. 17th Feb - 3rd April, lent 2010. I have this long to get to 102lbs. Then I will eat just fruit and vegetables for two days to get to 100lbs. And then I will celebrate.
I will look good in a bikini this summer. I will be able to buy size 8 skirts and look good in them for 6th form.
What have I become?
Eating the soft bits out of the fresh bread from Greggs I thought to myself, standing there in the kitchen, what have I become?
Always thinking about what I have eaten in the day, feeling too fat, letting it distract me from every day life, getting jealous of people who say no to food or are thinner. I need to sort myself out.
On Wednesday morning I am going to start a new blog, "Skinny Girl".
I am going to motivate myself and stop feeling sorry for myself. No excuses, I just have to be strong.
Always thinking about what I have eaten in the day, feeling too fat, letting it distract me from every day life, getting jealous of people who say no to food or are thinner. I need to sort myself out.
On Wednesday morning I am going to start a new blog, "Skinny Girl".
I am going to motivate myself and stop feeling sorry for myself. No excuses, I just have to be strong.
Monday, 8 February 2010
Sunday, 7 February 2010
An unlikely thinspiration
Browzing http://etsy.com/ I just came across an amazing piece of thinspiration.This crop top made me imagine that if I was really skinny I could wear it over a tight long vest tio and it would look really good. So I just need to stop messing around and start becoming skinny. I don't know if lent is too far away to start. I think I shall cut down
on snacking before then and then over lent no snacking.
I just imagined myself buying this, if I had a job I would have enough money so I could. That made me think about getting to work on my CV.
Ahh cant wait til lent.
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
Binge
Today I have been off school and I have eated SO MUCH.
But this website has made me feel a little better.
http://cinnamonhearts.com/afterbinge04.htm
I binged because I was bored from being off school all day and needed comforting. I binged because I'm not eating sugary foods after Wednesday and wanted to eat them while I can.
Everytime I binge I will write it on here. I say everytime... I mean IF I ever binge again will I will definately do my best not to.
YOU CAN RESIST!!
But this website has made me feel a little better.
http://cinnamonhearts.com/afterbinge04.htm
I binged because I was bored from being off school all day and needed comforting. I binged because I'm not eating sugary foods after Wednesday and wanted to eat them while I can.
Everytime I binge I will write it on here. I say everytime... I mean IF I ever binge again will I will definately do my best not to.
YOU CAN RESIST!!
Soon
I dont care if no one reads my blog and hell I dont want any one I know to find out about it.
I will be updating it as soon as I get my new laptop and no longer have to use the family computer *yay*
Its for myself more than anyone else, to stop me going to the kitchen and putting some crap in to my mouth.
Lent starts on Wednesday.
To my friends I will say my lent will be 'no snacking' (except fruit) which gets me out of all eating between meals. I'm normally ok at eating small, healthy meals so this will be good. Then I can skip meals and this is a good reason not to eat crap in between. It will be testing my will power but last year I gave up chocolate, cakes and sweets for lent so this year should be better.
I'm eating:
- no chocolate
- no sweets
- no cakes
- no sugary snacks, apart from 1 rice pudding/custard/popcorn on Sundays if I want it
- no breakfast, apart from fruit and porridge on days that I am playing sport (just Saturdays really)
- no salad cream (except with lettuce)
- limit cheese
Hopefully I will get in to good eating patterns so by the time easter comes I wont be thinking about food in between meals. I am going to add target weight and all that when I start blogging properly next Wednesday. Wish me luck!
The only downside of this is today I've had an 'enjoy it while you can' approach. This has lead to lots of chocolate, rice pudding and popcorn :/
No meals though which is good.
I am going to be a success story. I am going to come on here. 100lbs, I will say I MADE IT. Then I will be so happy. I will look at those size 8 jeans finally. and they will fit perfectly. Maybe a bit loose. I don't need food to be happy. This summer will be the best, wildest, sunniest, skinniest.
I will be updating it as soon as I get my new laptop and no longer have to use the family computer *yay*
Its for myself more than anyone else, to stop me going to the kitchen and putting some crap in to my mouth.
Lent starts on Wednesday.
To my friends I will say my lent will be 'no snacking' (except fruit) which gets me out of all eating between meals. I'm normally ok at eating small, healthy meals so this will be good. Then I can skip meals and this is a good reason not to eat crap in between. It will be testing my will power but last year I gave up chocolate, cakes and sweets for lent so this year should be better.
I'm eating:
- no chocolate
- no sweets
- no cakes
- no sugary snacks, apart from 1 rice pudding/custard/popcorn on Sundays if I want it
- no breakfast, apart from fruit and porridge on days that I am playing sport (just Saturdays really)
- no salad cream (except with lettuce)
- limit cheese
Hopefully I will get in to good eating patterns so by the time easter comes I wont be thinking about food in between meals. I am going to add target weight and all that when I start blogging properly next Wednesday. Wish me luck!
The only downside of this is today I've had an 'enjoy it while you can' approach. This has lead to lots of chocolate, rice pudding and popcorn :/
No meals though which is good.
I am going to be a success story. I am going to come on here. 100lbs, I will say I MADE IT. Then I will be so happy. I will look at those size 8 jeans finally. and they will fit perfectly. Maybe a bit loose. I don't need food to be happy. This summer will be the best, wildest, sunniest, skinniest.
Sunday, 1 November 2009
Looking to the right at the '0 days to my target weight' is actually one of the most depressing things.
Its actually a massive coincidence that I've returned to my blog today as I was just browzing some thinspiration sites, because today was the day when I was supposed to have reached my target weight of 107lbs.
In actual fact, I'm still probably more like 111, although I'm too scared to weigh myself right now because today has been the biggest binge ever and I had to take laxatives for the second time so I didnt feel so bloated. I've had crisps, chocolate bars, cereal, bacon sandwiches, bread and chicken today, which is more than I used to eat before I started losing weight. Yestarday wasnt a great day either as I went shopping with my mum and for some reason when I'm with my family I always overeat.
I think this is slowly turning into an eating disorder, and the couple of times when I havnt eaten anything all day is when I'm at my happiest. But then I think I've done well so think I can eat something then go and ruin it. But from now on I am just going to come on here and let the thinspiration help me stay clean.
For a week or so I was getting the hang of not eating, but I always seem to binge at the end of the week like I did today. But you haven't failed until you've given up. And this girl is not giving up.
Some quotes to inspire:
Giving in to food shows weakness. Be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
You won't feel satisfaction after you eat that, just guilt.
Its actually a massive coincidence that I've returned to my blog today as I was just browzing some thinspiration sites, because today was the day when I was supposed to have reached my target weight of 107lbs.
In actual fact, I'm still probably more like 111, although I'm too scared to weigh myself right now because today has been the biggest binge ever and I had to take laxatives for the second time so I didnt feel so bloated. I've had crisps, chocolate bars, cereal, bacon sandwiches, bread and chicken today, which is more than I used to eat before I started losing weight. Yestarday wasnt a great day either as I went shopping with my mum and for some reason when I'm with my family I always overeat.
I think this is slowly turning into an eating disorder, and the couple of times when I havnt eaten anything all day is when I'm at my happiest. But then I think I've done well so think I can eat something then go and ruin it. But from now on I am just going to come on here and let the thinspiration help me stay clean.
For a week or so I was getting the hang of not eating, but I always seem to binge at the end of the week like I did today. But you haven't failed until you've given up. And this girl is not giving up.
Some quotes to inspire:
Giving in to food shows weakness. Be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
You won't feel satisfaction after you eat that, just guilt.
Friday, 24 July 2009
Why it doesnt feel like summer
The rain is bucketing down outside and there is no hint of sun, and it is 1.45pm when it should be the sunniest.
How crap.
How crap.
Friday, 10 July 2009
Chocolate truffles and chocolate biscuits
Super leathel... I succummed to their powers :P
Dammmnnn
I'm dreading the scales tonight.
Yestarday I was down to 111.2 which is REALLY GOOD. Should be under 110 by next week.
Lily Allen quote:
"But everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner"
Dammmnnn
I'm dreading the scales tonight.
Yestarday I was down to 111.2 which is REALLY GOOD. Should be under 110 by next week.
Lily Allen quote:
"But everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner"
Monday, 6 July 2009
What I have eaten today
Bran flakes - 80
Glass of milk - 80
Chicken kebab - 500
Be good to yourself crisps - 98
Sainsburys crisps - 129
2 Walls mini ice creams - 80
1 apple - 60
Diet coke - 0
TOTAL DAMAGE - 1027
Alright day.
Glass of milk - 80
Chicken kebab - 500
Be good to yourself crisps - 98
Sainsburys crisps - 129
2 Walls mini ice creams - 80
1 apple - 60
Diet coke - 0
TOTAL DAMAGE - 1027
Alright day.
Saturday, 4 July 2009
Good Mood
I won a Babyliss hairbrush which was really cool, and it wasnt the fact that it was a hairbrush it was that it came through the post free that just made me smile.
Todays damage so far:
Smoothie - 120
Bran - 70
Apple - 50
Greggs mexican chicken roll - 430
2 mini icreams - 80
Caramel snack a jacks - 101
Dinner - tba
Total so far: 851
I am going to my friends bbq for dinner and for drinks. Alcohol is not good for losing weight at all.
Todays damage so far:
Smoothie - 120
Bran - 70
Apple - 50
Greggs mexican chicken roll - 430
2 mini icreams - 80
Caramel snack a jacks - 101
Dinner - tba
Total so far: 851
I am going to my friends bbq for dinner and for drinks. Alcohol is not good for losing weight at all.
Thursday, 2 July 2009
113!
I did go for a run yestarday, and weighed myself and was 113! Thats 1.2 gone in one day, and I didnt even eat that well. So happy.
Got to be careful not to put it back on now though.
What I have eaten today:
Glass of milk - 100
High Bran - 100
Go Ahead bar - 250
Snack a Jacks caramel flavour - 101
Walkers Lights cheese & onion crisps - 113
Dinner - tba
Total so far: 664
Update 8.27pm:
FAIL.
Mood has completely plummited. I binged.
1 more pack Snack a Jacks - 101
2 mini milks - 60
1 walls twister mini icecream - 40
4 ginger nut biscuts - 320
Fruit smoothie - 150
Snacking at dinner parents had - 200
Ham - 100
TOTAL: 664 + 971 = 1635
Gained 135 calories.
FAIL FAIL FAIL
Some one give me some encouragement and inspiration PLEASE. I need some help. :/
Whats worse is I cant even go running tonight cause I have to deliver some catalogues.
FASTING TOMORROW. (And running if I get the chance).
Diet coke will now be my best friend.
My mood is worse because I had a massive argument with my family. AHHH.
Got to be careful not to put it back on now though.
What I have eaten today:
Glass of milk - 100
High Bran - 100
Go Ahead bar - 250
Snack a Jacks caramel flavour - 101
Walkers Lights cheese & onion crisps - 113
Dinner - tba
Total so far: 664
Update 8.27pm:
FAIL.
Mood has completely plummited. I binged.
1 more pack Snack a Jacks - 101
2 mini milks - 60
1 walls twister mini icecream - 40
4 ginger nut biscuts - 320
Fruit smoothie - 150
Snacking at dinner parents had - 200
Ham - 100
TOTAL: 664 + 971 = 1635
Gained 135 calories.
FAIL FAIL FAIL
Some one give me some encouragement and inspiration PLEASE. I need some help. :/
Whats worse is I cant even go running tonight cause I have to deliver some catalogues.
FASTING TOMORROW. (And running if I get the chance).
Diet coke will now be my best friend.
My mood is worse because I had a massive argument with my family. AHHH.
Wednesday, 1 July 2009
What I have eaten today
Damage:
Bran flakes - 80
Glass of milk - 115
Sandwich crusts - 100
Pick n miz - 200
Minstrels - 211
Pasta tuna sweetcorn and mayo - 450
Mini ice cream - 40
Handful of grapes - 30
TOTAL: 1226 kcals
I need 1500 to maintain a constant weight.
Not utterly dreadful but I still feel like a PIG from all that pasta. Once I start I just cant stop eating!
From the pick n mix onwards is everthing I have eaten between 4 and 7pm. Its disgraceful.
My textiles teacher gave me loads of work so I went a bought some minstrels to cheer myself up. I need to stop buying chocolate to cheer me up.
Going to try to keep it under 500 kcals tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes.
Hopefully I can motivate myself to go for a run tonight after gossip girl.
I weighed myself last night. 114.2lb.
My goal is 107. If I reach it, I want to treat myself with something. Clothes? What do you think?
Bran flakes - 80
Glass of milk - 115
Sandwich crusts - 100
Pick n miz - 200
Minstrels - 211
Pasta tuna sweetcorn and mayo - 450
Mini ice cream - 40
Handful of grapes - 30
TOTAL: 1226 kcals
I need 1500 to maintain a constant weight.
Not utterly dreadful but I still feel like a PIG from all that pasta. Once I start I just cant stop eating!
From the pick n mix onwards is everthing I have eaten between 4 and 7pm. Its disgraceful.
My textiles teacher gave me loads of work so I went a bought some minstrels to cheer myself up. I need to stop buying chocolate to cheer me up.
Going to try to keep it under 500 kcals tomorrow. I'll let you know how it goes.
Hopefully I can motivate myself to go for a run tonight after gossip girl.
I weighed myself last night. 114.2lb.
My goal is 107. If I reach it, I want to treat myself with something. Clothes? What do you think?
Reasons to fast tomorrow:
UPDATE: 8.37pm - said no to a few chips dad brought home from fish and chip shop. I feel powerful.
Tuesday, 30 June 2009
Monday, 22 June 2009
What I have eaten today
3/4 cheese and chicken panini
2 small plates bran
An apple
Some salad leaves with salad cream
5 olives
2 chocolate orange segments
Blackcurrent and apple fruit squash.
Total calories: approx: 1000
Not bad considering its a school day.
2 small plates bran
An apple
Some salad leaves with salad cream
5 olives
2 chocolate orange segments
Blackcurrent and apple fruit squash.
Total calories: approx: 1000
Not bad considering its a school day.
Friday, 5 June 2009
New t-shirt designs!
I designed three new t-shirts for the River Island Competition.
What do you think of them?
If you like them, I would be extremely grateful if you could vote for them here!
Vote for my t-shirt design!
I created a t-shirt design and it would be great if you voted for it!
Go to the River Island Style Insider T-shirt Gallery to vote and see more t-shirts!
What do you think of it?
Thursday, 4 June 2009
Get $2.15 FREE
At first this may seem a little too good to be true, so please allow me to explain. I have been trying to earn enough money to get a payout on SendEarnings.com for ages now, thinking they could send me the money through paypal. However today I finally got enough and it turns out they can only send the money by check. They can only send it to America, and I live in England which is incredibly annoying.
So, if any of you want to help me out, it would be great if you could send me $25 dollars, and I will give you all the information you need for the account which you can claim a cheque for $27.15.
This can be very quick and earns you money!It will benefit the both of us.
So, if you would like to do this then comment this post and I will give you the email to send the $25 to. As soon as I recieve it I will send you the details for the account. And I promise I will because the account serves no benefit to me whatsoever.
Here is the proof of the money in my account:
So, if any of you want to help me out, it would be great if you could send me $25 dollars, and I will give you all the information you need for the account which you can claim a cheque for $27.15.
This can be very quick and earns you money!It will benefit the both of us.
So, if you would like to do this then comment this post and I will give you the email to send the $25 to. As soon as I recieve it I will send you the details for the account. And I promise I will because the account serves no benefit to me whatsoever.
Here is the proof of the money in my account:
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